Olay has crossed the rainbow bridge, she left unexpectedly, when she seemed to be at her best, we still don't know why she had to leave.
I will forever remember August 7, 2020. It was 6:00 a.m., and something made me get out of bed; I knew something was wrong. I found Olay under a bed in a room, breathing heavily and with blurred vision. We rushed him to the emergency room as fast as we could, and by noon, he was gone. I'm writing this because it's my selfish way of coping, and I feel it's my duty to explain to anyone who will read this that losing a dog you love so much causes a pain you can't imagine until, unfortunately, this awful situation strikes you.
My love for Olay was immense; I never thought it was possible to love an animal so much. We looked at each other with a knowing glance, and when she did something she shouldn't, like a dad who spoils his daughter, I'd try to hide the mischief and keep it between us. This last month and a half, I decided to enjoy my time with her to the fullest. This was going to be our summer, renting a place in Benidorm where she loved spending hours strolling with her dog Elvis in his stroller and having dinner at her favorite places. We didn't have time to enjoy it as much as I'd hoped; you had to leave before then. My little angel, as I called you so often, had to go and cross the rainbow bridge.
Now I realize that our priorities in life are reversed, that we make important only the urgent situations, or we believe that what's truly important is having a lot of money here, a car there, or the latest cell phone on the market. When you lose your angel, your princess, or someone who could truly make you smile just by looking at them, who would kiss you just by bringing their face close, or who accompanied you on your solitary walks, you realize that time is limited, and we should only enjoy it with those who are truly worthwhile. Your little one looks for you around the house, and even though we put him in the middle of the stroller where you used to walk together so many times, the one who loved you so much stands to one side waiting for you. There are few living beings who have the capacity to be loved as you were. I once heard a phrase that said, "People forget what you said and what you did, but they will never forget how you made them feel." You made us feel like the happiest family we could possibly be.
You didn't say anything, you just loved us, without asking for anything in return. I miss being able to feed you on my lap three times a day because of your esophageal problems; it was a moment I loved, sitting with you and watching you eat slowly. I miss your panting and snoring, I remember your tongue on my face, and your little nibbles on my beard. Damn, I miss you so much it hurts my soul. I hope to feel you again soon. I'm sure we had so much more to experience together, and that the day I decide to share my life with another dog, a part of you will be in her, and I swear I'll feel it.
When I held you in my arms, and you were already lifeless, I told you I loved you a hundred times. You know that wasn't enough; you know I couldn't love you more. Now I only ask one more thing: take care of your daddy Elvis, your mommy, and take care of me. I swear I'll miss you every day of my life, but as time goes by, I won't feel this pain anymore, especially because you wouldn't want that for me. I'll remember you with a smile, and I'll be able to say that I truly knew unconditional love. Finally, I want to tell you a secret: in the world of the dogs who watch over us from heaven, treats don't make you fat. I love you, princess, my angel, my star.
